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Sunday, August 31, 2008
it's just a few more minutes to 1st september. wishing all teachers a very happy teachers' day; and also: wishing BILL und TOM KAULITZ a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY. :D \o/\o/\o/\o/\o/    the twins turn 19 tomorrow! (actually in 5 minutes time. it's 23.55 now.) and i bet all tokio hotel fans around the world hope that they'll continue to lead the world of great music at nineteen years of age and counting. :DLIEBE! :D ---------
rahh i need to learn debussy's reverie by the end of this week. at least be able to play through the whole freaking song and be abit familiar with the notes. i love the song but it's quite hard for my standard, considering i havent touched the piano for so long. D: funny how i dont seem to follow the priority list. D: ------- went over to sok's house to study yesterday. was quite fruitful cause i managed to finish binomial and p & c :D oh and i caught tears of the sun last night. reminds us of war and conflict and "there's no glory in war" all those kinda things. okay was planning to finish trig 1 today but we went out today! D: woke up damn early for a sunday, cause my family usually sleeps till 11 or 12 on sunday. :/ woke up at 8 and then left for kent ridge park. it felt really really good to be so close to nature once again. brought back so many memories of new zealand, and i must say, kent ridge park does have some resemblance to wellington's botanical gardens! just less exotic plants and more tropical trees and jungle. haha. and more humid. D: walked from kent ridge to alexander. saw really pretty gargens models and plants on the way. walked for like 2.2 km from kent ridge to alexander and then walked back, which equals to 4.4 km. hurhur. then went to eat, and then head of to terminal 3 cause we've never been there before. must say it's really really huge but the number of crowds were dissappointing. where were all the people! D: i love candy empire. :D i totally embarrassed myself acting like a overgrown kid in candy empire, overwhelmed by the huge variety of candy there. :D I SAW GERMANY'S GUMMI BEARS. -hyperventilates- oh and U.S.'s jelly beans. seriously i felt like bill in his U.S. storemarket hyperventilating in candy empire. awww man i love that place so much! :D went home and dropped dead. we were all so tired. :/ tmr's going to be another day out AGAIN. D: my mum's planning to go to my grandma's house, and i have chinese tuition at night. %#!@# okay i need to do heymath's vectors, heymath's binomial or trigo 1 tmr. and start learning either chem or bio. and start brainstorming for the music composition. and finish that eroica's 2nd, 3rd and 4th movement assignment tomorrow. this holiday is gonna suck. D: CARPE DIEM. Labels: homework, ramblings, tokio hotel ich liebe Tom! 11:45 PM Friday, August 29, 2008
ooooohhhhh mein gootttt. i couldnt take it anymore. http://hothits957.com/Tokio-Hotel-Performance/2871386 DAS IST SOOOOO GEILL. bill sounds so beautiful. :D and this http://hothits957.com/Tokio-Hotel-Performance/2871339 oh myyyy. i love bill and tom's smiles. :D and tom's obviously having a big ego again. :D ------- I LOVE HOUSE. :D i think dr house is so cool! :D i love how he thinks, how he works, even though he's such a pain, and it's obvious he has lots of issues. he's just like some doctor with too much wit, too much brains, and an overblown head and ego. haha! but he never fails to save the day in the end. :D HOUSEE!!! :D Labels: fangirling, tokio hotel ich liebe Tom! 11:59 PM updated:
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it's 27 more days to eoys. carpe diem ------- teachers' day today was pretty much the usual. class party, then concert. class party was really great. we had cake, pizza, jelly, spaghetti, kueh pie ti, etc etc etc. the food was really great. then the concert. the standards have really dropped for the students performances though. it's like sec 1s, sec 2s, sec 2s, and then sec 4s. 4 performances, no sec 3s performing. it's been reduced to like singing and dancing. nothing really special. then stayed back in school from 11 till like 3 to study with math. we both ended up driving ourselves crazy. D: okay i need to finish that chapter of vectors. D:
met yanyi at the cck interchange, and she said she was going to meet up wu qi, leonard and michelle to play badminton at yew tee cc, so i just tagged along. WU QI LOOKS AND SOUNDS REALLY REALLY DIFFERENT. i was like talking with yanyi at the side while michelle was playing with wu qi, and then i couldnt recognise wuqi so i was like "eh who's that guy playing with michelle arh?" and yanyi was like "it's wu qi!" >.< omg unrecgonisable. but hey, it's been 4 years since i've seen him okayy. michelle and wu qi were very hiong. very pro. :D and yanyi was very intimidated. haha. i stayed by the side to watch and tried to do my math, but to no avail. not exactly a conducive environment. :/ ------
okay i need to finished vectors and start on eroica's assignment and binomial theorem. D: ich liebe Tom! 5:24 PM Wednesday, August 27, 2008
qianwen: "i need a more exciting life. our life is so boring and mundane." me: "ya. but i thought some other people said our life damn exciting!? got politics leh." qianwen: "oh. AWESOME." it's 33 more days. im still on HOMEWORK. -.- nein im just being self-delusional. ~ ostrich! ~ >.< ich liebe Tom! 11:44 PM Tuesday, August 26, 2008
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im at a loss for words. Labels: meme quizzes ich liebe Tom! 11:40 PM Monday, August 25, 2008
oh great. i've slacked this whole weekend off again. i've practically done NOTHING. D: im falling deep into fandom again. scheisse. D: ich liebe Tom! 12:12 AM Sunday, August 24, 2008
rahhhhhh. im feel damn angst-ty right now. D: anyway, episode 40's out! :D quote of the day: bill: "Tom sieht richtig scheiße aus... die geben wir ab!" :D which basically means. bill: "oh Tom totally looks like shit! we're giving these!" HAHAHA. and gustav smacks georg's butt at 3.40. and georg was giving gustav the "huh?!" look. and someone drew on tom's jacket. -.- by the looks of it, tom was definitely irritated with all the phototaking btw, and the twins just cant stop annoying each other. oh. and bill's "who is taking these shots? someone needs to destroy them!" was kinda hilarious. ---- went for yesterday's scarlet, by our very own nanyang theatre club. it was awesome. there was alot of info, alot of food for thought. very visual, and it was all very real. i think it left the audience thinking, thinking about our way of life, our society, our reality- the issues that we face with everyday, yet no one seems to bother to deal with it. ---- oh woe. D: i was doing math trigo with jasper, my tuition teacher and i was all like "omg i cant do a single question! D: " and then my dad happened to pass by. dad: "trigo you cannot do?!" me: "ya. all those topics need to remember formula and apply without understanding one i cannot do. D:" dad: "trigo and algebra are like the easiest topics lah! need to memorise 6 formulas only can do the whole topic already!" me: "trigo got so many! wheregot 6 only!" dad: "only need to know sin=1/cosec, cos=1/sec, sin^2+cos^2= 1 all that what!" me: "that's only the basics, then all those double angle formula, compound angle formula, r formula and factor formula leh!" dad: "what's double angle formula. where got such thing!" oh woe. D: Labels: ramblings, tokio hotel ich liebe Tom! 12:22 PM Tuesday, August 19, 2008
i want it. i want it so bloody much it hurts so much to see that i dont even get a chance to achieve it. thankyou for being my inspiration, my life, my heartbeat. goodbye my opportunity. Labels: ramblings ich liebe Tom! 11:50 PM as childish as this sounds: i still cant let go. i dont belong anywhere. not in school, in class, or even at home. i've never found inner peace anywhere except when im by myself or in band. band was the only place i ever belonged to, the only place i was ever myself, and the only place i've ever found peace. now it's quitting me, and i have no place to go. i want to fly and see the world; travel to someplace (e.g. germany! :D) and stay there. cause i know it's easier to feel that you dont belong in some place where you really dont belong. it hurts so much more to know that you're supposed to belong here, yet you dont belong. ---- i love this by the way. it's so wicked. :D
i love it! it's so wicked! somehow it reminds me of all of beethoven's symphonic ideals; like how they used strings (e.g. violins) to play the riffs instead of guitars, and the repeating rhythm, and how much meaning the lyrics hold. it's so brilliant, it's wonderful. the meaning is so beautiful, and what's more, the whole song sounds so blissful, like a heavenly calling, only to mask the true meaning of the wicked lyrics. haha. it's LOVE! :D it's like beethoven making a statement about revolution, freedom, liberty and the equality of men, but coldplay has it all in a bigger picture: long live life! --- school's been pretty bad. my results are like dead. they're really extreme. it's either an A1/ A2 or a B4. not a single B3. D: wthh. so technically i got B4 for 4 freaking subjects, which is FAIL. cause in nanyang, a pass is a 65%. hence my freaking lousy msg. i need to improve MATH, CHINESE, GEOG, LA AND IH. D: especially MATH, CHINESE and GEOG. i dont know what to do for IH and LA. D: and maintain BIO AND CHEM AND MUSIC. especially MUSIC. it's like on the verge of crashing. D: ------
and in addition to all that, bio past year papers, and I.H. test corrections need to be done, cause i need the revision. EOYS are in 43 days! (or as qianwen says, "EOYS ARE OVER IN 9 WEEKS." ) i need to get down to some serious studying. which obviously isnt working for me D: can somebody teach me MATH. i cant do a single question lah wth. D: okay i shall go study for bio quiz and chem quiz now. (rahh electrochemistry! D: i failed the previous test miserably. it was damn pathetic. ) and i need to finish up math worksheet 11.2, start on math worksheet 11.3, and brainstorm for 作文八。 i have ZERO motivation to do chinese at all. even though i have alot overdue. D: and there's music assessment tmr. like "YAY IM PREPARED." -.- im going to fail. --- i want to sink into eternity; await the eternal darkness to claim me.
i love this song. it's been my lullaby, since forever. Labels: band, fangirling, homework, ramblings, school ich liebe Tom! 8:47 PM Saturday, August 16, 2008
i still remember jasmine once told me "你超级爱哭啦! especially when it comes to sec 4s leaving. okay sec 4 ler cannot cry so much." from then on i never cried in band. until today. D: it was all so emotional. our last time playing with the band, our last time wearing the gorgeous band uniform, our last time playing national anthem, last time walking into band room etc etc. and for me, the last time being the SL. last time addressing my section, which consists of 2 people, as the SL. -.- haha. since the start of the day, with founder's day celebrations and national anthem at the atrium in band uni, i've already convinced myself not to tear/cry/break down etc during passing down no matter how emotional it was. :/ and i was pretty determined not to cry. wore band uni for the whole day! :D i love our band uniform! <3 so there were elections today. congrats to kay yun, tabby, mei qi, li ting, valentia, and yiying for getting into the new comm! :D i think the new comm's great, they'll do fine and lead the band to greater heights. then there was our batch finally handling over to the sec 3s. D: our comm, our SLs, our batchies. our last time saying the band cheer together. tears started to roll down, most our batch started to tear. aye tianhui started it! haha. everyone just started to be red-eyed and cry even during band cheer lah. D: i was sitting in front of ziyan and val, and beside guanteng, and it was when i saw them crying that all the immunity walls that i had built came down, and finally made me tear. (scheisse. D: ) tabby and kay yun were red-eyed, quin and celine were tearing like mad. D: then section stuff/talk/gathering. finally, the 2nd generation of nycb double basses has passed down, and it's time for the 3rd generation to take over. I LOVE MY JUNIORS. i couldnt believe what they got me seriously. omgg. i have the best juniors in the world. i was so freaking touched, seeing what they got for me finally made me cry again lah wth. but i calmed myself down very quickly after that. i seriously couldnt believe it. after all they've given me, this was the best, and it's going to be my prized possession. :D I LOVE YOU GUYS (namely, mianjun and michelle) SO MUCH! <33333 okay i believe my juniors can make it! :D the two of you must jiayou and prac hard okay! (though i doubt any of you comes here. -.-) even though you guys dont have the height, -.- but still, i guess the both of you have potential. and come on, PLEASE GROW TALLER? D: haha j.k.j.k. saw alot of juniors and batchies getting emotional and cry. and then mian jun was like giving out free hugs haha. hugged alot of people that i'll sorely miss. D: band's been such a big part of my nanyang life, i feel so empty inside now. there's nothing to look forward to everyday in school, school life's turned uber mundane. D: since joining band, the bandroom has been our home in school, and leaving band now, just feels like we're going to leave home with all our family members and friends in it. finally, kexin made the realisation set in by saying, "i've never felt so difficult to step out of bandroom before." that one sentence just made me cry like shit lah. D: she just had to say it. and you know, me being very slow, just didnt realise how big the impact was of this whole thing and when i did, i just couldnt take it. i finally broke down. stepping out of bandroom for one last time, never walking back in again. D: i'm just glad i made band my cca. i've never experienced anything so amazing and wonderful before. all the joy it brought to me, i've really enjoyed every minute of band, and i've never regretted my decision to join band. and the best thing is, this experience is exclusive to us and us bandees of nycb only. no one else truly understands how we feel about nycb, and how incredible this whole experience has been. LOVES! <333 pictures coming up next. im too lazy now. --- okay that was supposed to be posted on friday, but my com's modem just kept crashing, and i just kept disconnecting so in the end i just gave up. anyway, in the midst of all the passing down flurry, i've forgotten about tokio hotel! :D 15th august, 2008. 3 years since durch den monsun was published, 3 years since tokio hotel fascination has began. :D and for memory's sake: durch den monsun-tokio hotel these guys have growned so much in 3 years. they've just finished their 1000 hotels tour in europe and they're currently touring the states and canada now. \o/\o/\o/\o/ -flails- they've just had 1 whole week on TRL all to themselves in U.S. like 2 weeks ago. they've been to montreal, newyork, new jersey etc. they've been on steven's untitled rock show, which was really great, and their english has seriously improved alot alot. haha! :D oh i love this website. loveth-music.4fans.net. it's got all the lastest news on tokio hotel! :D tokio hotel tv! episode 39 - "making of monsoon" the helicopter is amazing! :D omg it's love. and tom, bill and georg were like joking about the jumping into the sea part. -.- it's obvious they couldnt do that. georg's being naughty when bill mentioned that the front of that "junkie" car was filled with so many crew members and he commented "well, isnt't that funny?" -.- and tom's laughter that followed after just reminded us of his eighteen year old inner self. oh and georg let out that bill was so particular about his typewriter shoot that he wanted to reshoot that scene when he mistyped something. that's was just hilarious. that whole rain scene on that stage up on the mountain was brilliant. :D it's amazing to see how much they've changed from durch den monsun when they were 13? 14? until this monsoon, the english version, which they probably shot when they were 16? 17? i feel so sad for gustav! he's like sitting at the side, not saying anything, keeping to himself. he's so introverted! D: episode 38 has been great too, with all the 4 of them reminiscing about their childhood heroes. the hilarious part was when tom said he liked that green monster in the trash can from sesame street and he forgot that monster's name and gustav was like "cookie monster! :D" and then georg and bill were like "NEIN. cookie monster's BLUEEE." haha hilarious.
i love his response to "recently i was surprised by" cause it's a known fact that georg doesnt like to take baths. and "for dinner i like to make", his reponse is so classic. cause the news reported that he was making pasta and pizzas for bill for dinner when bill was at home recovering from his vocal chords surgery. haha! then again,
it's really amazing to see how similar, yet different the twins can be sometimes. :D Labels: band, tokio hotel ich liebe Tom! 12:20 AM Tuesday, August 12, 2008
RAHH IM DYINGGG. today is a very sad and depressed day. D: i got poked in my bubble so many times. D: i feel so dejected now. to know whatever that i inspire to be next time can never be fulfilled, cause i chose the wrong path to walk in the first place. D: okay i feel like #$%&*^$ now but HAIYA. nobody knows how important it is to me. D: i really really wanted it. and now it's like all over cause i realised i cant go on from here. at all. there's hardly any route left to go, it's like a dead. it's like telling me, it's time to let go. something which i cant do at all. i cant imagine how life without band would be. seriously. and yet it seems like i really have to let it go. band in JC? nein. i cant play any instrument they offer, and they dont offer the instru i play. and to see others so close to achieving their dreams, MY DREAMS, is just so agonizing D; i feel freaking helpless, like im standing rooted to a spot and the whole world is just passing by, with me in the shadows. i seriously dont know what to do anymore. it's like im now at a dead end, and i cant turn back, turning back would mean square 1, that far away from my dreams AGAIN. and best lah. SHE snatched the other dream away from me. --- okay im stressed. music presentation's tmr and the rubrics are MADNESS. D: it's like:
GREAT. i "smartly" went to choose stravinsky's symphony on NEOCLASSICISM. D: and now i dont understand a single thing im about to present to my music class with a pathetic population of only 6 people. and i cant mark out the points on the score! i still dont understand the concept of neoclassicism, which means im going to die. im going to fail tmr's presentation.
and passing down's on coming thursday! D: im sorry my dear section, im not really for gifts. HOW BOUT A GREAT BIG HUG. :D ich liebe Tom! 8:18 PM Sunday, August 10, 2008
jingyi's and wenting's posts on band are making me emotional again. D: picture spam! :  last year's concert a.k.a. appa XI's promo banner, and also our band tee design! :D i <3> okay me and my wacky section. and NO im not bullying my juniors! >.<  my lovely batch! :D nycb sec 4s '08! photo taken in the green room before going on stage for limelight. the whole of NYCB. at band fiesta 2008 held at the singapore botanical gardens. all those orange people were the lovely sec 1s as they were dancing for our yan3 ge1! :D me and jasmine! :D omg just realised this is like the only photo with me in BAND UNI. (excluding batch photo) and it isnt even the whole uniform lah. D: and this photo was taking at KAP. what a great place. -.- apparently my LOVELY SECTION including jasmine tan forgot to take section photos during limelight. no actually we did try to take section photos, but we tried taking mirror shots, which turned out as a failure like this one: our section photo in our changing room. looks damn weird. :/ and we soon gave up after that. -.- PRO. okay wen ting's lovely picture spam on her HORNS section at esplanade during limelight is making me regret not photowhoring with my lovely section. AYE im going to miss you guys. D: okay anyway. school has been pretty mundane as usual. D: friday our school celebrating national day by "voluntering" ourselves at the connect singapore event. aye the whole event was such a waste of time. seriously. the whole thing turned out as a failure, and the best thing was, the feeble attempts of the motivators failed to even get us high at all. -.- read here for more. i have "no comments". -.- i dont know. in my opinion, more could have been done, and such things like that should have been foreseen. organisation was pretty bad, and nobody knew what was going on at all. i acknowledge all the hard work the organisers have went through, but hey! something like that should really have been foreseen, and even if the whole event failed, the motivators should really have done something else to make up for it. the DJ was really bad as well. there were like supposedly 43000 children (i expect less, seeing that lots of people ponned.) holding hands around the whole of singapore, just waited for her one command over the radio at 91.3 FM. and what did she do? she just did a countdown from "10!" "9!" "8!" all the way to "3!" "2!" "1!" and then silence. all of us were there wondering "arent we suuposed to say the pledge? why isn't she saying it?" we were totally confused about the whole situation. so we waited. -.- and finally some motivator runs past us saying that it was all over and we could all go back now. GREAT. media makes everything so fake. D: okay, still the organisers deserve some appreaciation for their hardwork done. i could see loads of councillors running around, trying to motivate us, looking flustered about the whole thing and stuff. maybe they should try it again next year? and they should obviously try to improve the organisation of the whole event. ANYWAY. after that event, went over to jurong regional library to finish up NYAA. apparently my hours arent uploaded yet. D: rahhh! D: the librarians were damn cute lah! :D they were talking to each other about some stuff, and then they started telling each other ghost stories, but not before asking me if it was okay. librarian 1: "eh better check with her whether can or not. she chinese leh." librarian 2: "eh mei mei arh. now is your chinese ghost month right? can tell ghost stories one or not?" me: "urhhh yea i think so. im not much of a believer actually. i dont pray and stuff. why?" librarian 3: "oh cause last year during this time we told ghost stories to another chinese girl and she said why we like that! very bad to her! later she fall sick!" librarian 2: "and the next week she came, she really fall sick." librarian 1: "but aiyah i think can lah. just dont say anything bad about ghosts. she free-thinker right." me: "ya im free-thinker." haha! damn cute lah. cause they were all malays and they were afraid of offending me and stuff haha.
went my grandma's house to celebrate national day after that by watching the parade on the teevee and stuff. we could see the fighter jets doing the formations and stuff from the outside corridor! :D saw the heart that they formed, and we could also hear the fireworks display (they were too low to be seen; blocked by the other HDB flats.) :D okay i just slacked my whole day away today. D: no actually i slack the whole weekend off. but i did manage to finish 2 storybooks though! :D which equals to not doing homework, which equals to slacking. D: Labels: band, ramblings, school ich liebe Tom! 2:43 PM Thursday, August 7, 2008
warning longggggg post.
sorry for all the tokio hotel song spams, but wir sterben niemals aus really suits my feelings and the situations that im in now. passing down's next thursday, and i just cant describe my feelings. i feel that i havent really heard enough band songs, played enough bass, enjoyed enough band prac, laughed enough with my juniors. i havent had enough of band. it's like concert's over, limelight's over, it's time to focus on EOYS, but no. all i can think of now is BAND BAND BAND. life in nanyang is pretty meaningless and pointless without band. i still remember looking forward to band every tuesday thursday and friday, wishing that time would pass faster during lessons. classes were such a bore! and once the dismissal bell rang, i would immediately pack up and choing to bandroom. :D i still remember dreading every sectionals on thursday, cause sectionals meant that we had bass lessons, which meant that mianjun and i were going to be screwed cause we were always afraid that we were unable to play the pieces on ms yeo's full bass and she just come after us. D: i still remember all the lunch pracs that we came back for during lunch, how the bandroom is always so freaking noisy (especially clarinets, trombones, horns and PERCUSSION) and our poor section can never hear ourselves. i still remember everytime i laughed in band prac, is always because my crazy junior did something hilarious or utterly ridiculous, or some very lag section like EUPHOS cannot synchronise their actions and gimmicks properly so they always sit down at different times, or percussion people were damn cute and ganchoing running around playing and filling in their parts. that was all the ups i had. i still remember the times when things got difficult, when i was chided almost everyday by my parents about band, how they threatened to get me out of band, how much they hated it, how they downgraded our band's standards, and said it was pointless for me to be in band. i still remember the time when ms yeo tried so many times to convince jasmine and i string enzem was so much better a cca than band for a double bassist to be in, how many times she tried to persuade us to join strings instead, how many times she said a double bassist was nothing, NOTHING in a band at all. i remember the times when everything seemed to go wrong, how my academics dropped, how family matters started to appear, how emotions ran high, and how self doubts were aroused. i kept asking myself, "how did i get here? why this road? is it all worth it?" but in the end, it was the music and the people who got me through the hard times, who proved to me that everything i went through, all the confusion, the mixed feelings, the hardships and critisms were worth it. i finally realised, band was all that i wanted, it's my everything. without it, i doubt if there's anything to my life. 4 years. 4 years of this wonderful and enriching journey, all filled with joy, laughter, tears, sadness, confusion, doubts, hardships, and fun. is it all ending here? how did i even get here? i've gained so much from this journey. every concert marked an end of a chapter, and the beginning of a new one of this life i led in band. i remember the clumsy little sec 1 i was then. always knocking down trombone cases stands. i remember being so terrified of sec 4s, yumin, aiwen, yanzhen, vivan, zhuojing etc. SYF'05 , we got a gold, and the band broke down crying. us, as sec 1s then couldnt understand. the school didnt understand. nobody did. and i doubt we ever would. i remember trying to play 7th night and when you believe for festival of arts, but i couldnt make it. i has barely started to know fingerings. i pissed string enzem people off with my idiocy, and broke down when yanzhen finally approached me to ask if i was okay, cause i wasnt. D: passing down came for the sec 4s then, and me being so weak and vulnerable then broke down immediately when i saw huijuan, jasmine, pea, pat, and liangzhen crying for aiwen. appassionata IX in ny audi on 16 December 2005, was the first concert i played in, and the piece that hit me was finale, cause it was so difficult and i was playing with the alumni, i was co terrified i would just screw up and die. pieces like rosa, simple gifts and nineties were love! other then that, appa IX was a wonderful experience for me, and after that, the first batch of seniors left me. sec 2, appa X. concert was held at VCH on 25 june. filled with many difficult pieces like ride, persis, gelato etc, it was definitely a big improvement for me (and jasmine) on the bass to be able to play these pieces. VCH was glamourous for us, the backstage was big for us at that time, and the venue was just huge compared to ny audi! :D we also had NY GLITTERS at esplanade. even though band played a small part in this production, as being the first item still left pressure on our shoulders. in addition, we had to dance. bolero was such a boring piece, and we really got sick after practicing so much for it, but awww the esplanade backstage really made up for everything, and all that photowhoring was really fun! SYF 07 on 11 april. jericho was everyone's heart and soul. shouting on stage during the climax of jericho, everyone really gave their heart in the music and shouted with all their might, shouted for victory. in the end, we were awarded a gold, SOLID GOLD. jumping for joy, eyes fillled with tears, we'll never remember jericho the same way ever again. appa XI came on 20 july, gimmicks by the previous comm were done so creatively and amazingly, it was total LOVE. :D i remember practicing really really hard for pirates dreams, eighties, and saints. and i remember the crowd cheering for the gimmicks of eighties. it was all so cool. our very first elections came and we were all so nervous. i remember that i was the first to be called in, i just went in and acted like some over-enthu, "i live in a bubble and i am happy" kind of person. it was all really crap cause i was damn nervous and terrified of all the eyes staring at me. i didnt get in anyway, our new comm was established and that was when realisation dawned upon me. sec 4s are leaving again, and this time, it's our batch's turn to take over and lead. i still remember during sec 4s passing down, almost breaking down and asking huijuan and jasmine "what would i do without you guys?" i feared the future so much- i feared the unknown. this year, our band went for japan trip but i missed that, it was really fun for them though. then the cancellation of appa XII replaced with Limelight. mixed feelings by the band again, all towards the school and its management. why all the prestige? is prestige and status all so important? why cant we have appa XII, a concert which is OUR concert? OURS not anyone else's? yet we continued to work hard, to strive towards limelight. band fiesta before blocks at the botanical gardens was really fun, we got to roughly judge where our standards stood, and at the same time, promote limelight. and then limelight came and went. thanks to the media, our concert was all over the papers and even broadcasted on the radio, and the advertisements resulted in the hype, which resulting in the 1600++ audience whom we played to at the esplanade concert hall on august 4th 2008. the feeling was marvellous. we had a great stage and arena, and a even greater backstage. to us, it was limelght no more. it felt like any other appassionata concert, particularly, appa XII. we did the seniors proud. :D before the concert, whatever tianhui and ms chong said to us for concert prep touched many heartstrings and brought many tears. in the end, many of us were crying before the concert. but i couldnt. no matter how much i wanted to, how emo and sad i felt, i just couldnt do it. i've realised i've grown much tougher and stronger through this whole journey. it has nutured me i guess. i can stand much more pressure and tolerate many more critisms and setbacks. i dont cry as easily anymore. instead of "how did i get here?" now i ask myself, "where do i go on from here?" idk. many this is a good and bad thing. all i know is that i really miss band, and i really want to go back just to replay the whole limelight repetoire. i want that whole concert feeling again. i want to hug everybody and never let go, to tell them how much i love each and everyone of you guys, to laugh with you, to cry with you, to tell you guys that i'll always be here for you to rely on, to fall back on. i'll always be by your side. nycb is THE LOVE! <3 :D Labels: band ich liebe Tom! 10:39 PM Wednesday, August 6, 2008
  it's the same with every concert. you wait backstage, you're so nervous and tensed up you can even feel your own pulse. everyone's getting emotional, some are even freaking out. you start hugging your batchmate, your sectionmate, your best friend and anyone and everyone else you can find comfort in. your mind's blank. the only thing you hear is only the song you're going to play up there, and the millions of jiayous and good lucks that everyone is wishing each other. you hear the crowd screaming and clapping outside, and you feel your heart racing.you go up there, you start playing the opening piece, and you just lose it. you lose yourself in the concert, in the wave of mixed emotions and feelings overwhelming you. you recall all the hard work the band's been through to put up this great show and you think, this is it. tonight, you're going to give it your all. you're going to do NYCB and MS CHONG proud. yes, yesterday's experience was the same with any other concert i've played in. before the show, i cant think coherently at all. my mind's blank, i feel so nervous and i just start going around hugging people, trying to calm myself down and encourage everyone, including me, that yes, WE CAN DO IT. the only difference was that, as sec 4s, yesterday was our last concert as part of NYCB. just that last part of the sentence made many of us sec 4's emotions running high, and many of us started to break down even before going on stage. for me, it's sort of after. yesterday, we, the nanyang concert band played for LIMELIGHT at the ESPLANADE for a 1600++ audience. :D almost full house. everything came and went so fast, it's like we havent really had the time to experience it all. it was all just a blur, a rush- going on stage for limelight felt just like an hour or maybe just half an hour. everything was just moving so fast, we didnt have time to comprehend and really experience and speculate everything. after concert, realisation started to set in (for me, as some of you might know, i have very slow reactions to this kind of thing) and it finally hit me- our batch's last concert is over. where do we go from here? how can we live on without band? limelight was seriously great. the atmosphere, the band, we just went out there and played our heart out. no matter the outcome, like what cheryl said, "it's the process that matters." we braved alot alot of obstacles and fears to come this far, and we finally made it, yesterday, as one band- NYCB. hymm was definitely my favourite of the night, and im sure of many others. it just sounded so good, all of us feeling the music together, all of us cresendo-ing and decresendo-ing, holding that climax of the whole piece with our very heart and lungs, it was all so very emotional. i bet alot of us cried, or at least wanted to during hymm, cause i know i did. im so touched by it. memories of these 4 years just kept replaying through my mind throughout the whole piece, all our stuggles, and strife, and finally conquering everything, having peace at mind, ending in a happy, emotional ending. sorry im not very coherent right now. the above paragrph sounded very weird. i shall do my "thankyou speech" now, and do the emo "nycb experience" thingy tmr. ziyan's post triggered many of my heartstrings and im damn emo now. anyway, I LOVE NYCB LOTS LOTS LOTS. <3 a very big THANKYOU firstly to my section, namely MIANJUN and MICHELLE, for walking through this year together with me, (for mianjun, TWO YEARS TOGETHER :D) and for making my day always. especially when im down or im having an emotional roller coaster, you guys never fail to make my day when i see you guys prac so hard, coming back for lunch pracs when i tell you guys to, and for doing the silliest and most ridiculous things i've ever seen (especially mianjun) just to lift my spirits and make me laugh. you guys are the reason why i look forward to every band prac even when im oh-so tired and when im so stressed with academic life. next, to BATCH MATES. 四年在一起了！当然有感觉啦！:D a very big thankyou to you guys for walking through 4 years of NYCB together with me, playing every single piece that i've played in my nycb experience, experiencing every single concert that we've been and played through. you guys are also the reason why i look forward to every band prac, with all that madness, craziness, randomness, and of course, gossip. without any one of you in our batch, i guess our journey would have been very very different. also, thankyou HORNS, TUBAS, EUPHOS and CLARINETS. i think these are the sections which i've been really close to, cause you know OUR SECTION IS LIKE 3 PEOPLE SMALL, and hence we keep sticking to other sections, cause you know, THE MORE THE MERRIER. :D thankyou HORNS for your very lameness and GAYNESS. like seriously! i never knew ziyan was THAT GAY. and obviously, like senior like juniorssss, so the whole horn section is gay! :D you guys never fail to make me laugh at you'all and every single one of you are so crazy, yet lovable! :D TUBAS. thankyou guys for being the ones playing beside our section everytime! :D "doesnt being the person playing beside you in every band prac mean a thing to you!?" haha. we could always rely on you guys to get scores, since we play the same parts sometimes, and just listening to you guys playing beside just was a very comforting thought, like you guys were always playing beside us, and we'll always have you guys to rely on if anything goes wrong. EUPHOS. thank you guys for being my closest gossip friends in band. haha! qianwen and kexin, you guys are like the people whom i always eat with, and CLARINETS. the clarinet juniors are all so lovable and they never fail to hype me up! :D with Fingers and Toes, their rubbishness never fail to crack me up, and some people like HUIZHEN, CHINGYING, SANDY, CHUNHUI, SHIRLYN etc are just so lame! :D omg they never fail to make me laugh and lift my spirits for the day, no matter how tired i am. and of course, there wouldnt be a mad section without a mad SL! tianhui's madness never fail to crack me up. she's just so hilarious but serious at times. :D oh oh i still remember your SEXYBACK DANCE. :D okay, i also want to thank the BAND- NYCB in general for making yesterday such a wonderful memory for me. 4 years in NYCB, and i guess yesterday's experience would be the highlight of my entireNYCB EXPERIENCE. I LOVE YOU GUYS LOTS. <3 a big thankyou also goes to the teachers, mdm chia, matthew lim for making our experience so much more amazing and magical, and of course to MS CHONG, the person whom the band looks up to. :D thankyou for bringing us here this far, to greater heights, thank you for lighting the passion in every single one of us with yours. and i bet that passion lives on forever... and last but not least, a very big thankyou to all those who came and supported the band yesterday. thankyou FOUR TWELVE, for showering me with all yout gifts and encouragements, you guys are love! and of course, thankyou LIUYI, SOK, SHENA, SHAUN, KY, HAN SHENG, etc etc and all those who came  quotes jasmine, "nycb- it's something called pride" we did the alumni very proud yesterday. i cant believe that we'll be joining the alumni next year. omg i feel so old. it this the end? where do we go from here? thankyou nycb, for all the memories, for everything. thankyou for making a difference in my life. Labels: band ich liebe Tom! 12:04 AM Monday, August 4, 2008
about 18 more hours to limelight.
okay, it's been 4 years. 4 years since this whole amazing journey started. i know this sounds really cliche but i really seemed like we were sec 1s yesterday, and today we're sec 4s, ready to pass down. flashes of everything that happened during the past 4 years start to run through my mind. appa IX, appa X, appa XI, SYF jericho, band fiesta etc etc etc. all that laughter, all those tears. this year's cancellation of appa XII, replaced with- LIMELIGHT. this is when we show them who we really are. show that 1500++ people out there what we are really capable. emotions running high. it's our first and last LIMELIGHT. our batch's last concert. okay must JIAYOU JIAYOU and most importantly, FOCUS. D: take note of hymm, jalan jalan, FUNNICULI D: (that high f note), and gimmicks for latin, disney, 76 etc etc. rahh im havin this very bad feeling right now. =x anyway, quotes from cheryl's blog.
LOVES LOVES LOVES. i really dont know what to do without nycb. :D we are the music while the music lasts... sorry for the incoherent post. too excited/emotional/nervous/cannot think already lah. D: 18 MORE HOURS. Labels: band ich liebe Tom! 1:11 AM Sunday, August 3, 2008
WARNING: NSFW. VIEWER'S DISCRETION ADVISED. LIMELIGHT'S TMR. and SHIT HAPPENS. actually, no. it's worse than that! how suay can i get. D: omg why why WHY must it start yesterday! D: in this case, by tmr, it'll be the 3RD DAY and the 3RD DAY for me is always the worst! D: then i'll be in pain for the whole freaking day and i'll be damn tired lah. and i cant do alot of things. i cant run, cant eat, cant stand for too long. omg i feel so shitty now. D: WHY MUST THIS HAPPEN TO MEEE. qianwen says that val kena on x-country, guanteng kena the next day and she kena the following day. woah BEST. it's like one whole bloody epidemic. rahhh! ANGRY. D: come to think of it, that's why i've been having mood flactuations, and i've been sleeping at like 10 every night. cause i was damn tired lah. D: and i couldnt do any concert stuff in the end. okay i need to rush out concert stuff tonight. LIMELIGHT IS TMR. anyway, band has been LOVE LOVE LOVE! <3 i think our hymm is really nice and emotional! :D i LOOOOVEEEEEEE HYMMMMM. im going to miss it after concert! D: okay i feel damn emotional now. -.- this is really bad. RAHHH. D: im off to jurong library to do stupid cip for nyaa with qianwen. rahhh nyaa. D: ich liebe Tom! 1:32 AM |
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