-wir glauben;

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

as childish as this sounds:

i still cant let go.

i dont belong anywhere. not in school, in class, or even at home. i've never found inner peace anywhere except when im by myself or in band.

band was the only place i ever belonged to, the only place i was ever myself, and the only place i've ever found peace.

now it's quitting me, and i have no place to go.

i want to fly and see the world;
travel to someplace (e.g. germany! :D) and stay there.

cause i know it's easier to feel that you dont belong in some place where you really dont belong.
it hurts so much more to know that you're supposed to belong here, yet you dont belong.

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i love this by the way. it's so wicked. :D

Viva La Vida- Coldplay

I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own

I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing:
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"
One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt, and pillars of sand

I hear Jerusalem bells are ringing
Roman calvary choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
Once you know there was never, never an honest word
That was when I ruled the world

It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People couldn't believe what I'd become
Revolutionaries wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh who would ever want to be king?

I hear Jerusalem bells are ringing
Roman calvary choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest work
But that was when I ruled the world

i love it! it's so wicked! somehow it reminds me of all of beethoven's symphonic ideals; like how they used strings (e.g. violins) to play the riffs instead of guitars, and the repeating rhythm, and how much meaning the lyrics hold. it's so brilliant, it's wonderful. the meaning is so beautiful, and what's more, the whole song sounds so blissful, like a heavenly calling, only to mask the true meaning of the wicked lyrics. haha. it's LOVE! :D

it's like beethoven making a statement about revolution, freedom, liberty and the equality of men, but coldplay has it all in a bigger picture: long live life!

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school's been pretty bad. my results are like dead. they're really extreme. it's either an A1/ A2 or a B4. not a single B3. D: wthh.

so technically i got B4 for 4 freaking subjects, which is FAIL. cause in nanyang, a pass is a 65%.
hence my freaking lousy msg.

i need to improve MATH, CHINESE, GEOG, LA AND IH. D: especially MATH, CHINESE and GEOG. i dont know what to do for IH and LA. D: and maintain BIO AND CHEM AND MUSIC. especially MUSIC. it's like on the verge of crashing. D:

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HOMEWORK
I.H. public health essay (overdue)
I.H. gender inequality essay (overdue)
作文八 (overdue)
math WS 11.2
math WS 11.3
heymath binomial theorem (overdue)
heymath vectors (overdue)
RGS chinese paper 2 (overdue)
RGS 作文 (overdue)
math remedial revision
math revision vectors
math revision binomial theorem
math portfolio (final submission)
beethoven timeline (wayyyyyy overdue)
waldstein sonata (wayyyyyy overdue)
summary of beethoven's life (wayyyyyy overdue)
music SIA (concert journal, exam pieces analysis etc.)
red- priority
brown- to be done by this week.

and in addition to all that, bio past year papers, and I.H. test corrections need to be done, cause i need the revision.

EOYS are in 43 days! (or as qianwen says, "EOYS ARE OVER IN 9 WEEKS." ) i need to get down to some serious studying.

which obviously isnt working for me D: can somebody teach me MATH. i cant do a single question lah wth. D:

okay i shall go study for bio quiz and chem quiz now. (rahh electrochemistry! D: i failed the previous test miserably. it was damn pathetic. ) and i need to finish up math worksheet 11.2, start on math worksheet 11.3, and brainstorm for 作文八。

i have ZERO motivation to do chinese at all. even though i have alot overdue. D:

and there's music assessment tmr. like "YAY IM PREPARED." -.- im going to fail.

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i want to sink into eternity;
await the eternal darkness to claim me.

Unendlichkeit (eternity) -tokio hotel

Die wärme trägt uns bis in die unendlichkeit
the warmth carries us to eternity
Alles treibt an uns vorbei
everything floats past us
Im mondlicht sind nur noch wir zwei
the two of us are the only ones remaining in the moonlight

Die unendlichkeit ist nicht mehr weit
eternity is not far away (anymore)
Die unendlichkeit ist jetzt nicht mehr weit
now eternity is not far away

Die nächste ewigkeit ist an der zeit
it is time fot the next eternity
Für immer ist alles was uns bleibt
for ever is what remains for us
Durch den horizont am himmel vorbei
through the horizon past heaven

Die unendlichkeit ist nicht mehr weit
eternity is not far away (anymore)
Die unendlichkeit ist jetzt nicht mehr weit
now eternity is not far away

i love this song. it's been my lullaby, since forever.

Labels: band, fangirling, homework, ramblings, school

ich liebe Tom! 8:47 PM

♥ willkommen

"WIR STERBEN NIEMALS AUS "

Viel zu viel Liebe an der Musik
Viel zu viele Grenzen unbesiegt
So viele Gedanken
und Wörter nicht beendet
Ich glaub nicht das das bald endet

Wir bleiben immer
schreiben uns in die Ewigkeit
Ich weiß das immer
irgendwo was bleibt
Wir fühlen
wir sind fürs Ende nicht bereit
Wir sterben niemals aus
Ihr tragt uns bis in alle Zeit

this is a slightly fangirly blog of a girl, who loves tokio hotel.
komm shon, wir schaffen es zusammen.

♥ das ist mich

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more As
tokio hotel caught on cam dvd!
reach 168 D:
drums!
guitarrrrr!
bass!
lernen Deutsch!
~~get a job~~
fly to Europe!
stop procrastinating.
to be a global citizen

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♥ ich brech aus