-wir glauben;

Sunday, July 26, 2009

there's dark times ahead.

i need to be strong.

those will be the times where i think back and reminiscence, look back at our journey together, see the faces of people whom i really love, care and cherish.

im grateful for the memories, i just dont know how to express my gradtitude.

maybe i'll pen it down in that book, and maybe next year, i'll read what i've written, and realise what i've really been thankful for. for the people around me, the people who've i've drawn my courage from.
it's because of you that im still here, still fighting along this path, and that im still hanging on.

whatever happens for the next few weeks, even if i have to let go, i'll still be hanging on.
even if im not there, im still holding on.
even if im not there, i'll still be thinking of it.
waiting, anticipating, feeling, yearning.

but then again, reading someone's post made me realise im not needed.
there's so many of us, one less wouldnt hurt. im nothing to them.
this situation is probably different from the one 4 years ago, because now we're assuming the same roles.
of what importance do i have?

im not good enough.
looking around, i realise i will never be.
no matter how hard i try, i'll never be as good as them. just because there's more than just being good on my plate, and im not giving myself wholly to either.

what good am i.

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just watched last year's farewell video, and i realised this is why i cant really let go.
the concerts, the tears, the hardwork, the triumph.
the music.
the journey we travelled together, some of us 4 years and counting, some of us merely half a year.

though i've had my grudges against it, i guess it's the performance, concerts and the music that had me going. the feeling on stage, the applause.

and now, (both) farewell's coming. it's probably the most dreaded thing that can happen (after elections) D:
im in denial. wts i dont really want to face reality.

ich bin tot.
wth am i going to do now.

Labels: HCband, HCult, ramblings, thoughts

ich liebe Tom! 10:31 PM

♥ willkommen

"WIR STERBEN NIEMALS AUS "

Viel zu viel Liebe an der Musik
Viel zu viele Grenzen unbesiegt
So viele Gedanken
und Wörter nicht beendet
Ich glaub nicht das das bald endet

Wir bleiben immer
schreiben uns in die Ewigkeit
Ich weiß das immer
irgendwo was bleibt
Wir fühlen
wir sind fürs Ende nicht bereit
Wir sterben niemals aus
Ihr tragt uns bis in alle Zeit

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komm shon, wir schaffen es zusammen.

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reach 168 D:
drums!
guitarrrrr!
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fly to Europe!
stop procrastinating.
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