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Monday, September 28, 2009
thanks brudders yongquan and shengjie, sista e-hui, david and peter today for bearing me and my intolerable sickness. >< thanks for all the care and concern, what would i do without you guys man. talked to yeo kexin. i think she's just instigating her own demise at this rate. tmr is pon school day. im currently out of my "blur and unconscious" mode from my fever, but when i go to sleep i'll slip back into that "blur and unconscious" mode again. gg. okay i shall go off to chiong integration, read lectures 1-3 for econs. D: Labels: brudders/sistas, david/peter ich liebe Tom! 11:39 PM Sunday, September 27, 2009
 school, family, friends, class, cca, cousins, teachers, sisters, friends, "friends"... urgh. hurt comes from everywhere. anytime. Labels: ramblings ich liebe Tom! 11:36 PM Friday, September 25, 2009
 koped from daryl's blog. these few days have been of high and lows, though it wasnt really obvious. many thanks to jiaming for teaching me math and nelson for teaching me chem. :D thanks to brudders for accompanying me home almost everyday after mugging in school till late. :D <3 managed to catch with kexin and jasmine for abit! :D happy happy. and was fighting with yeo kexin over her purple balloon! >< hahaha of childish desires again lol. yesterday's pick-up was really fun. zi-highed like siao. just needed to let everything go, let it all out. >< went crazy playing, was cheering like siao for weijie (the smaller ninja! LOL), danette (the superwoman WHOOO!), shengjie and nicholas the zai people! and almost everyone else at the sidelines with cynthia hahaha. zihighhhh omgg. was really tired, even had leg cramps after that for idk what reason but it was really fun. XD it's good to be on field playing with your teammates again. <3
love his voice! :D went to clarke quay with david and peter today for "One Giant Leap", a parkour event. seeing all the fellow traceurs pulling off stunts, kinda scary but still zai. lol. haha. watched them scale walls, jump over railings, jump from places to places, learnt how to break fall. (oh the both of you better teach me how to break fall man i wanna learn!) really cool. met some primary school classmate there too. after that went off to bishan library to study. peter koh couldnt stop niaoing me. -.- and david wasnt helping (thanks arh). peter was totally teaching david the tactics of making me laugh/smile/crackup LOL. zzz totally niaooooo. ayeee i just let him play along cause i was kinda tired, then i had to go home, and the 2 of them decided to come over to study. studied in the room with the 2 guys from like 4 till 8. did more of intellectual talking i guess. discussing KI and life. like you may just want to heck about others and just do what you like to do or enjoy in life. but what you enjoy or like to do might not be the right thing to do. then what is the right thing to do? talked about the essence of existence, and really makes someone a good person, or what defines wrong from right. >< discussed how science and religion may actually exist together. like they may exist simultaneously and not conflict if you dont put them together. or you can know logic and reason and still have faith, cause you might know science but still choose to believe in religion. it's the choice that matters, cause ultimately, a person who know science would still need to have his own character, morals and faith. and moral and faith might originate from one's beliefs in religion. so why not? later i learnt abit of physics from them (while trying to study bio HAHA.) before the both of them kiddos left for home. the next time we meet we'll do parkour, and go lan together HAHA. loves, you guys never fail to make me smile. :D Labels: brudders/sistas, david/peter, HCult ich liebe Tom! 11:27 PM Monday, September 21, 2009
HAHAHA OMG DARN CUTE. :D Oh, The Temptation from Steve V on Vimeo. :DDD THE KID WHO SLAPPED HIMSELF. :D ich liebe Tom! 5:35 PM  taken on MAF day, during pvsp. :DDD these are the people i love. <3 MAF was hectic, with pvsp in the morning. it's really heartening to see your batchmates fighting on the field and giving their all against their very own seniors. i was getting high watching their spectacular plays from the class wing with nelson, shaun, e-hui and david lah. remember nelson d-ing daryl, yongquan (the ninja!) and shengjie (the superman! HAHA) fighting hard against each other, weijie, d-ing marcus. omg the adrenaline must be unimaginable. e-hui said i was getting high from the kerosene that they was using to make the fireball, but i couldnt help it, not when you feel this burning sense of passion for the game deep within you, and you feel their adrenaline, just by watching your brudders play on field, without even touching the disc. you feel this sense of pride swelling up from deep within you for how far your own batch has come from the times we couldnt even flick or catch properly. :D MAF at night was fun, but tiring. spent it with david and peter (LOVES! :D), caught up with both of them for some stuffs, then played sparklers with sista, and brudders :DDD weijie, ian, yongquan and jonny kept trying to burn things up hahaha, weijie even lit his own disc on fire! hahaha (thinks weijie the terrorist LOL.) ian used kerosene (i think. >< )to spell HCULT and weijie lit it with fire, and all of us just had fun watching the blue flames dance around, remembering the burning passion that each and every one of us there had for the game itself. :D even managed to see yanyi and shaun tho, haha. so the night was fun filled with pretty scenes of sparklers, lanterns, fountain, and good company. :D was tiring though, went home and fell asleep immediately. >< more details when i get the photos from peter, :D and i want the photo of the HCULT flame leh, brudder send me! :D ------- someone cheered me by sending me this song. justin bieber - ONE TIME haha sounds like another bill! he's like 15. and he's signed on with records with usher. win liao. it's been long since i've last talked to you. it's even longer since i last saw you. what, 4, 5 years? i can't believe what you feel still holds. after so long. that's when i realised, love waits. patiently. Labels: david/peter, HCult, ramblings ich liebe Tom! 2:53 PM Sunday, September 20, 2009
 i've come to realise that "再见" isnt a really a good translation for "goodbye". "再见" means we'll meet each other again. some day, some how. "goodbye" means forever. Labels: ramblings ich liebe Tom! 10:26 PM Saturday, September 19, 2009
 i want sparklersssss! :DDDDD thankfully han sheng told me where i could get some, so tmr is saved! :D ----- the past week has been kinda eventful, mugging with brudders and teammates after school every day. many thanks to brudder shengjie, yongquan and ian, who never ever fail to cheer me up. :D hahaha. going home together and whatnot. sorry brudder shengjie for always always alwaysssss troubling you. ><
mugged with weijie, jasmine, shengjie, yongquan on most days, then would find time to HTHT with david hahahaha. lol. hmm. (jiayou for tmr/today! :D) missed the seniors especially e-hui alot. ><  today was kinda fun. went to makan with szemin during the first break, then saw nelson and xinyu's class people flicking in the field, with kexin inside! hahaha lol. then during lunch went to flick lol. marcus suggested that we played disc in cause it was raining, so melvin, henry, kevin and xinmei formed a team, with me, marcus, damien and ivan on the other team. darn fun and everyone was just superrrrr zihigh omggg hahaha. laughed alot at marcus and melvin's stupid stuffs hahah. but then when i got the disc, i did a super lan throw to marcus and it flew down to the field. D: everyone was like omggg GG. then suddenly henry chionged down into the field IN THE HEAVY RAIN to help me get the disc omggggg. >< flicked with brudders after CT again. flicked with oli, shengjie, yongquan, ian, nelson and weijie. yongquan is like super zai lahhh! i can't fake pass him. DDD: lol now yongquan brudder's my new idol. NINJAAAAA HAHAHAA. super pro. though chao ren thinks that he's better LOL. haha we'll see tmr. (or in a few hour's time. :D ) after that left with CT for gems at udders ice cream! :D was zi-highing on the bus with szemin, yiling, siying, phuong and uyen LOL. paired up with szemin for the ice cream making, made vanilla ice cream together! :DDD then junde came to join phuong and bojia at our table, and his appearances caused disasters to happen. seriously. we were supposed to put our ice cream mixed into the ice packs and then roll or massage them. once junde appeared, phuong spilled ice water from her ice pack. then junde's ice pack started leaking. -.- when he finally got another bag to contain his leaking ice pack, he forgot to ziplock the ice pack and hence he spilled his ice water. EPIC MAN 3 accidents since his appearance LOL. oh and i saw this! :D  DARN CUTE LAHHH I WANTTT. :DDD but sadly they dont sell the shirts, but their employees wear them hahaha. omggg i should totally go work for them so i can wear their shirt! :DDD after making the ice cream, we started our ice cream buffet! :DDDD our whole class was flooding the parlour lahhh seriously. just went to try everything. in the end sze min and i ordered like hazelnut, strawberry, cookies and cream, caramel, chocmarsh, mango. darn niceeee omggg. and hahah we had 2 waffles. bihyee ordered this lava chocolate drink which was super heavenly. koped some of nat's earlgrey and tiramisu ice cream, omggggg darnn niceee lahhhh :DDDD and haha bailey's was heavenly, but too much alcohol LOL. tiramisu also got liqour. ><> oh naughty yiling and siying went to order 2 scoops of ice which contained rating 7 amount of liqour for ms yeo omgggg. hahahah. then ms yeo eat already nothing happen. -.- ayeee. then the guys were all chionging the liqour contained ice creams -.- ayeeee. camwhored abit haha, got high with szemin, eat ice cream, stoned, dreamed, then the whole thing ended with taking a class photo. was super zi high after all that sugar, (especially the orange chocolate liqour icecream LOL) then left for grandma's. :DDD ---- okay kinda feel conflicted about tmr. there's pvp, which im SADLY DDD: not playing for, and then there's MAF, which i really dont know what to expect, who to find, who i need or can hang out with. i kinda just wanna go to school to see teammates and brudders play, see szemin, siying, christabel and junde perform, and just enjoy teammates' company. (if there is, hopefully ><) hoping to find peter koh and ky there also (zoo people! :D), then hopefully david's thingum goes well hahaha. aye we'll see. just trying not to expect too much, cause i dont want to be disappoint. :/ just really want to see faces (brudders, peter, ky david), feel their presence and be assured again. Labels: brudders/sistas, CT 09S71, school ich liebe Tom! 12:46 AM Sunday, September 13, 2009
 qianwen just told me her story. i conclude life sucks. D:
i mean really. D: why does this keep happening to us. roarrr. and it's hard not to think about it. heh im sorry i cant really help you. >< though a big part of your life is gone, you still have to find the strength to carry on. forget it, it's over, get on with life. ----- by this week, i need to:
by next week:
my "study schedule" tells me im freaking screwed. D: die die die. by the way i just slacked my whole weekend away. D: wth die liao. im addicted to watching dance videos! :D cribwalking omg niceeee. :D hahahah. okay i need to focus. school reopen le, DIE LIAO. ich liebe Tom! 11:06 PM Saturday, September 12, 2009
:D respect! edit: oh dont call/message me for these days cause my phone's sent for repair. so yup. should be fine after tuesday/wednesday. slacked the whole day away, went to temple to pray to grandma, then came home for tuition. fail. i still dont get ap/gp D: die. i need to:
blue by tonight/this morning HAHA. orange by tmr. okay MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG. /edit ich liebe Tom! 9:56 PM Friday, September 11, 2009
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so none of us can be good cause every one of us is evil. we can only strive to be less evil? o.O hmmm. >< ----- mugged in school today with jasmine, yongquan, shengjie and kexin (who left earlier) haha. quite productive, managed to mug finish stoichiometry, atomicity and redox of chem, and did the revision lectures. (with loads of help from brudder again, thanks so much. :DDDD) now it's just finish chem bonding, and the extra stoichio exercises that i got from brudder, cause i cant do stoichio. ._. need to finish binomial before math tutor comes in tmr, then just spam questions during the tuition ayeee. kexin was darn hilarious today, hahahah she made me lose my concentration, then i cannot mug lah zzzz.
EPIC. lunch was eating cup noodles with jasmine and brudder, then wenqi came to crash with her food hahaha. saw kanzy, henry, yangxuan and marcus again lol. oh then there was shengjie niaoing and laughing at me for not knowing how to operate our school's photocopiers. ._. ayeee. oh by the way, nelson's scary. he managed to mug chem finish in 3 days wts?!?! im so screwed lah. pressure pressure pressure. >< ----  my temper's been flying. >< dear friend, (but i doubt you'd read this.) im sorry. D: im sorry about this morning, sorry i couldnt understand your situation more, sorry i cant be of more help. im sorry i havent really been there when you needed someone, sorry i cant be the one who helps you to release your stress and let it all out. we've come this far together, we'll make it through together. we will we will we will. jiayou okay, im alway a phonecall away. >< --- i really need to master number 2 on the list of 5 things to do in life. forgive. others before self. Labels: brudders/sistas, david/peter, ramblings ich liebe Tom! 11:08 PM Thursday, September 10, 2009
 been mugging in school with jiaming, shengjie, and jasmine in school for the past 2 days. haha jiaming kept disturbing all of us, cause he just refused to do work. but then he was helpful when you've got questions, cause he'll just help you solve. win liao, so smart no need to mug. hahah. oh i owe brudder shengjie alot. >< heh sorry i kept troubling you. ._. ayeee. thanks to the three of them for helping me so much for the past 2 days, mugging together, motivating me, and haha answering all my doubts. :DDD thanks, wouldnt have survived without you guys. :D ---- i kinda wish time would stop now. now, when we can just joke and random around about anything hahaha, niao each other about the smallest things, and just spend time together. i fear the future. everyone i know is seeking and harbouring for that something. that something more. i fear to know where i would stand then. then i would be nothing. i would be nothing compared to them. i fear that everyone would have found their place in the future, and i wouldnt have found mine. i fear that it would happen in the future. or is it already happening now? Labels: brudders/sistas, ramblings, school ich liebe Tom! 10:43 PM Tuesday, September 8, 2009
 hahah so true. >< just that now, my mind need to stop following my heart, and my heart needs to start listening to my mind. FOCUS DEAR. once again, others before self.  pretty pretty pretty. :DD today is a happy day! :DD im quite proud of myself. :D -egos HAHA- cause i sort of managed to finish up vectors! :D and started on graphs. i should finish inequalities, graphs and tutorial 7B by the end of this week, start on binomial and differentiation soon! :DDD JIAYOU i think mugging with jasmine or brudder in school is darn effective. it doesnt work if im mugging alone, cause i'll just slack. but idk, somehow mugging in their presence pressures me to work harder. or just NOT SLACK. and continue mugging. do question after question, page after page. :DDD yayyy. anywayy, kexin was supposed to go out with jasmine on a date, but i sort of crashed bah HAHAHA. cause kexin didnt know i was in school LOL. so the 3 of us went to lunch together at coro. had alot of fun and catching up. met sijie and zeilia, and band juniors there. apparently nyband was having band outing hahahah.
hmm. hahaha. talked much. :D then kexin and i zi-high over stupid stuff, like the ball ball thing! HAHAH. idk what it's called. but zzz omg yeo kexin spent 3 bucks on those kiddy stuff (okay lah she gave one to me. :D) and she wasted a buck cause SHE BROKE ONE OF THE TOYS. omggg darn hilarious i couldnt stop laughing at her. cause before that she was like telling me not to break it when i tried to help her open, then in the end she broke it herself. WIN. then we bought bubble tea. ._. epic man. she helped me poke the straw, then FAIL, cause she couldnt poke the straw into the drink, and the chocolate milk tea just kept spilling out. zzzz the whole world was staring at us 2 hysterical girls trying to poke a stupid straw into the cup of chocolate milk tea. -.- wts. met kanzy, yangxuan and henry, then all of us walked back to hc together. talked to kexin about stuffs for awhile again, hahah omggg that girl arh. zzzz. then kexin went back and i went back to join shengjie (who came later), jasmine and henry to mugg. :DD yay today was quite productive i guess. happy happy. :D then council was doing the preparations for MAF also. so cool! putting up lanterns and stuff. :DD jasmine left at about 5.30, then shengjie and i continued working till 7 before we left home. hahahah shengjie did something darn hilarious i couldnt stop laughing. talk to himself over the phone LOL. hahahah nvm we all act silly sometimes. :D oh man it's been long since i've been this happy. or cheerful at least. today is a happy day, because i think at last, i've sort of managed to let go. (:  haha today's company helped me take the stuff off my mind. :D thanks jasmine, shengjie and kexin! :DDD LOVES! <3 Labels: brudders/sistas, ramblings, school, thoughts ich liebe Tom! 9:15 PM  from here which proves my point exactly. (: ----- i PHAILLL. i spent my night listening and getting addicted to tokio hotel's automatisch. :DD LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE. :DDDDD it's an anthem worth listening to, worth getting my heart worked up for, cause it sort of reflects my feelings, and it helped to take my mind of some stuffs. :D hear those guitar riffs, those heavy drum beats! ROCKKKKKK ON! :DDD LOVEEEEE! <3 ----- i read qian's blog. she's giving up. like always, she's so decisive and on it. i cant. how i wish i could be like her. JUST CUT THAT ONE PERSON OUT OF MY LIFE. forget whatever happened, pretended i never felt that way before. it's freaking tiring. it's dumb. i feel dumb. im just wasting my time. urghhh im so freaking stupid. why am i so weak. D: Labels: ramblings, thoughts, tokio hotel ich liebe Tom! 1:26 AM Monday, September 7, 2009
 is it nature's way of helping us find our paths? secretly pointing out directions to us, just that we didnt know. talked to peter til 3 am this morning over the phone. :D loves. haha it's been long since we last talk. there's so much similarities between us. our problems, most of them of the same situations. >< though he doesnt tell me what exactly his problems are about, i guess i kinda know. some of them perhaps, not all. i hope i did understand. i'd really not be fit to be called your friend if i didnt. that's the least i could do, not knowing what you've been up to, after not seeing you for such a long time, the least i could do was hear you out, be that someone you'd confide in, and really try to understand your situation. maybe i've been really selfish. always just thinking about me and myself. urghhhh others before self, others before self. anyway, thanks. :D what you said last night, i guess those words were what i wanted to hear. reassurance. to know that we're still here for each other. <3  we need to broaden our visions. the world is big out there. went to school for econs this morning, then stayed back to mug abit. did managed to talk abit with nat for awhile, cause we lunched together hahaha. then met kexin in school, and once again, we just sat down to talk, to hear her out again. (: haha maybe it's coincidental or what, but so many of us are troubled over the SAME issue zzzz. like kexin, qian, me, peter, brudder. we all know this isnt the right time, but we're still into it, we just cant get rid of it. ._. urgh. D: focus, focus. >< went back up to mug math. fail lah. cannot do 7B at all. D: saw e-hui, kanzy, hiippy and sijie hahaha. then met yangxuan and marcus who helped me abit. then i left school at about 3. :/ ---- reading someone else's post that reflects my own feelings somehow always leaves me feeling conflicted. somehow, it feels like de javu to know how he or she is feeling, cause you've felt it too, or rather, you're going through it too. but the pain and hurt, or the sense of loss you've felt, it's certainly something whicn you hope your friends dont have to go through. D: and then again, you feel lost and hopeless, cause you cant do anything to help minimise that sickening feeling for your friend either. ._. sucks.
uhh hahah i dont know what to feel. loads of us reminisce the old times we had with our close ones, our loved ones. the memories made but times lost. :/ i guess it acts as a reminder for me to really treasure those around me now. for me, even though i might not be their priority, i dont see why they cant be mine? though i might not be of the utmost importance to them, i guess it's the gratitude towards them that leaves me putting them as my priority. i owe it to them. yup, live now. not in the past or in the future. treasure every moment i have with them now. (: Labels: ramblings, school, thoughts ich liebe Tom! 8:08 PM Sunday, September 6, 2009
 wie lange? how long have i dreamt of this. in germany, in deutschland. like a scene from a dream, a fairytale. so idealistic, yet it actually exists. jiaming got me hooked onto r chord once again. :D hahahah.
love the lyrics. love the song. haha the mv is quite LOL. but really meaningful. (:  :DDD an anthem to the starsss! after some family outing to the dairy farm nature reserve, where my shoes got very pretty (covered in mud), i was messaging peter. :D
okay im fat and short. and guyish. come peter koh. make me more girlyyy. ._. ZZZZZZ. heh, sorry i couldnt go study with you today. >< had tuition, and zzzzz family outinggg ._. but did managed to go mug in school with david and e-hui yesterday. :DDDD there was some university of warwick holding their summer games in our school, so you could see all the uni people playing frisbee and soccer and netball LOL. then in the morning marcus said melvin and him were watching them play frisbee, then they took their own disc and started flicking. then the uni people started watching and pointing at them and they too started too flick. then marcus and melvin started to do floor-bounce. LOL. ownedd. did math with david, while e-hui mugged her physics. was so much tempted to just go down and flick, watching others flick while i had to study, but thankfully david and e-hui stopped me. hahah. david left at 1.30, then e-hui and i continued to mug (with some sleep in between)until about 4 till we saw melvin and friend haha. both of them darn cute lah, they went down to flick abit while e-hui and i finished up mugging, then went to flick also. :DDD yayyy happy happy. flicked until about 5 then e-hui and i left to eat ice creamm! :DDD tried swirl's gelato for the first time, and i quite like the hazelnut. :D hahah nice nice nice. ----- by the way, remember this? well, kim lan's back, with another graffiti, featuring tom kaulitz's new look. :DDD omggg pretty pretty eyes. :DDD loveee! <3 she took like 3 days to complete it, done near paris. omggg talented. pretty pretty features. oh and nice lip ringggg. :D liebe! hahahaha. kay off to bed, there's econs tmr morning. then mug in school again. must do vectors and 7B mannn. and chem equilibrium! Labels: brudders/sistas, music, ramblings, tokio hotel ich liebe Tom! 9:13 PM Saturday, September 5, 2009
 from vi.sualize.us remember those times we had at the beach? i saw ky today. "heyy it's been long since we've last met. oh no i just met you a couple of days ago." -ky. 擦身而过 suddenly the world seems so big. we're studying in the same school, but time makes fools of us. we hardly see each other and it's been long, so long since we've last had a good talk. we've probably changed, so much so we dont even know each other anymore. you've become a familiar face i recognise in the crowd, someone i once connected with, but now a stranger. i dont know who you are anymore. & no this isnt your fault. it's mine. ------  from vi.sualize.us quite alot going on lately. did surgery and got retainers today. moodswing like siao the whole day until after school lol. the ct session was fun though. :D cool stuff! lunched with sista, omggg missed her much. >< feels weird not being able to see her in school haha. talked about stuff, thought about stuffs hahaha. after school was kinda disastrous, learning so much from her. she's proven that life can be so dramatic. a 180 degrees change from the day before. who really knows what tmr brings, where we would be in a few years time, or just next year? how many of us will still be together, treasure the times we once had and relieve these memories? i felt so dumb. so helpless, useless. urgh. i felt bad. i've let her down, when she was distressed from time to time again, i just wasnt there. i dont want it to happen again. things change so drastically. i dont know when's the next time i'll ever see her again. who knows, the next time she'll probably in america, she'll probably only tell me like a week before she flies off, and i'll just panic again. talked to david for quite abit. >< thanks alot for accompanying me <3 thanks loadss. today was totally mass talking session lah. after david just talked to e-hui then jasmine hahah. thanks jiaming for cheering me up with his songs! and then talked to oli also hahahah. :DDD went down to flick abit with oli after that, before both shengjie and oli went to sub in for the last match point in their pick-ups. then jiaming came to flick with me instead. helped me alot alot alot with hammers omg thankss. :DDD yayyy. cheered up by flicking (once again LOL) and yup, the day ended rather happily. :DD thanks to the people there for me. :DD love loads. the night before, went down to macs to study with hansheng. total fail lah, both of us started talking about our school lives and haha frisbee. :DDD it seems that RJ is like super open. ._. zzzzz and hwachong very conservative. i feel blessed to be here then, it'd be rather scary to be in RJ if it was really what he described it to be; guys pulling each others' pants down, and guys piggybacking girls, running along corridors yada yada yada. quite scary. O.O tmr's back to school, mugging with peter, david and e-hui. yayyy i miss peter much. :D cant wait. -------
---- oh by the way, tokio hotel's automatic MV is rather disappointing for me. D: i mean, knowing it's TOKIO HOTEL, i would have expected something more powerful, impactful and unique then what they produced? what they had was rather okay. nice set, stage, beautiful scenery, big machines and robots, CARS. but it seemed like a remake of transformers to me. ._. no originality! >< and i would have liked more scenes of the cars, or something more fanciful with them LOL hahah. okay lah, at least i got to see tom. :DDD HAHA. eye candyy! Labels: ramblings, school, thoughts, tokio hotel ich liebe Tom! 12:38 AM Thursday, September 3, 2009
 germany, the place of inspirations.
lovelovelove. i fell in love with tokiohotel again. LOL. ---- today was rather okay. thanks jiaming for teaching me AP/GP, and shengjie for lending me his tutorials omggg. thanks thanks. :DDD okay now i shall go down to mug. Labels: music, tokio hotel ich liebe Tom! 7:59 PM Wednesday, September 2, 2009
 focus on 1, 2, 3, & 4.
-stab stab stab- D: these are times where i really hate myself. ._. focus. FOCUS. Labels: ramblings ich liebe Tom! 10:43 PM  hmmmm.
i think shaun speaks for all of us, if not most.
haha it's been so long since i last talked to that guy. hmmm. now it seems like it's just the same old days, us complaining about life to each other, and in turn trying to spur each other on. it's been long, but it's happening again. 33 more days.  we'll be okay. :DD just mug hard now. ---- anyway my love for tokio hotel has rekindled! :D
love love love. :D okay now mug. need to finish econs, 7A, and maybe study vectors and chem equilibrium. Labels: ramblings, tokio hotel ich liebe Tom! 8:40 PM  oh hell. how could i have forgetten. teachers' day in singapore meant bill and tom's birthdayyyyy! this means my liking for them has really died down. after so long, like erm, 2 years? LOL. but i still love their songs. and im still waiting for their new single to be released. im waiting to hear tom's beautiful guitar riffs again, get enchanted by the music, fall in love with germany again. roarrr i forgot. ._. and the only reason why im still up is cause im studying for tmr's chem class test. ._. zzzz. Labels: fangirling, tokio hotel ich liebe Tom! 2:21 AM Tuesday, September 1, 2009
from itsybitsyspider.tumblr.com i've always loved lifehouse's blind. i've always thought i knew what the lyrics meant. but no.
hahaha (insert sacarstic laughter) life's ironic, life's dramatic. sometimes wayy too much. the acoustic version's super uber nice too. :DDDD i love the guitar in this song. :DDD omgg i wanna learn guitarrrrr. though it doesnt have fantastic or wowing guitar riffs (like what tom kaulitz (!!!) always does in tokio hotel's songs.) but the guitar part is calming and soothing enough. love love love. :D ---- i feel so dumb. all the while i've thought it was fake, but no. suddenly it's true. and it's the truth that's been staring back in my face all along. just that i've been too blind, or maybe just in denial to acknowledge it. we're turning in circles, only to find it's really just a circle. it's so painful. suddenly i realised i dont know you at all. we're so close, but so distant. it's time to let go.  it's time i learn to live not in the past, not in the future- but now. live now, live in the present. ich liebe Tom! 10:53 PM  from vi.sualize.us.com it's never enough. ------- saw some stuffs on that site, one which read LOVE= LIKE X LIKE. and i remember myself debating with david what love is. maybe love is just an obsession; it's not something that we all seek for, but it's something that we're all obsessed with. subconsciously, we all "seek to find" that feeling of being in love, the feeling of being loved, but not love itself. it's an obsession very few of us can get rid of, and even for some whom we think are already rid of it, are subconsciously finding our way back into that feeling. it's an obsession, so much so that the few of us whom think or know it isn't really love, are still stuck with it. maybe there isn't such thing as love at all. or else there wouldn't be things like breakups or divorces. ------ yesterday was eventful, with shengjie trying to get frisbee people to dance and zihigh together during mass dance but fail, cause people like oli and jiajie just went to camp at the 4th floor LOL. zihighed with my class girls instead, danced with szemin! :DD crashed teachers' day concert in the audi with brudders ian, shengjie, oli, jiajie, jiaming and sista e-hui, with their friend wangchi. was just totally randoming around, with ian and shengjie niaoing each other, laming around, and then jiajie and oli niaoing about almost everything. had much fun laughing at them, jiajie makes the most hilarious remarks about the smallest things man. (epecially the malay dance) LOL! then don and jingwei trying to imitate super junior was darn hilarious, all of us were laughing like siao. talking with kexin and qian yesterday in nanyang made me rethink my situation haha. funnily enough, the three of us are in vastly different situations, but so much so still fretting over the same issue ._. learning about theirs made me reflect on mine, how much more i differ from their situation, which was actually not much. ._. cause ultimately, it's still the same issue. and both qianwen and i still very much in the same situation, though she's better off than me, and kexin in a vastly different situation, much worse off then me. >< going back to nanyang made me feel so much more at home, seeing the juniors (mianjun, sharky, tabby, celine, liting, sandy etc etc etc.), the familiar faces, the exciting teachers! lol. and of course (and naturally), kexin, qianwen and i started going crazy once we got back to nanyang and saw it each other LOL. we totally acted like kids again, both of them with their "I TELL YOU I TELL YOU!" or "LISTEEENNNNNN TOOOO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!" hahahaha totally. talking and laughing at the top of our voices while eating icecream ("OMG OMG LET'S GO BUY ICE CREAMMMMM VERY LONG NEVER EAT LE.") in the empty canteen, cause nothing else mattered. it was really good to be hanging out with them once again, talking about stupid stuffs, bickering over the smallest and stupidest things, and listening to their silliest stories like the "flower of hatred" (LOL!), becoming the "tree of hatred" ! HAHAHA. kexin went back soon after, then i accompanied dear qianwen to coro where she met up with her class. ._. she totally dragged me around with her class cause she was the only girl there and she didnt want to be the only girl there. ._. zzzz. then we were supposed to go curry wok to eat, but then her class guys complained that curry wok was full so they stoned outside starbucks bickering over where to go for lunch. (and all the while shengjie, jiaming and david were at curry wok LOL.) went off to beauty world after that, bought macs for lunch then went down to irc, where i met jiaming and jax hahah. :D waited for coms cause there wasnt any, then jiajie was playing pool with his sec 4 classmates lol. david messaged me to say he saw me left the coro busstop lol. fated. then after that some of jiaming's friends came, many who i dont know, then suddenly there were like 12 of us waiting for coms to lan together. ZZZZ. super sian diao. they left after waiting for 20 minutes or so, and then shengjie, jiaming and i continued waiting lol. met people like nelson, jiajie (band) hongguang, yongquan brudder, don and JUNDE (hello best friend! :D). waited somemore until oli came with xining, yuhui and wangchi. so in the end 9 of us, (shengjie, jiajie, oli, yuhui, xining, wangchi, me, ivan and qihan) managed to get coms and played together lol. played cs at first, where yuhui and i were just at loggerheads; either he killed me or i killed him LOL. then oli was owning lol. then changed to play dota, where shengjie helped me alot cause i didnt know how to play at all. liwen came later and helped me alot too, until he decided to join us in the game. then the 10 of us were playing dota, i was dying like siao cause again, stupid yuhui was bullying me hahaha. then jiaming, kevin, thomson and someone else whom i didnt know came down from pool and jiaming helped me play LOL. hahaha. went home a short while after. was with shengjie at the busstop until we met yongquan there too. (LOL fate again) then took 67 home together. :D was darn tired, i just plopped down on my bed and slept when i reached home. ._. so dumb lah. -------
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