|
Sunday, November 1, 2009
 mine's probably soon. ------- this week has been full of ups and downs. im quite glad kexin chose to confide in me some of her stuffs, i really dont know what would have happened to her if she didnt. continue being blind haha. nah at least she knows what things really are now, even though the choice is really still up to her. (: there's quite alot going on for me too, with some realization happening on tuesday when i went home with brudders, which haha kinda ruined me when i should have been happy. ._. & then there was the wednesday issue, stoning with kexin for like 3 hours, emoing. then the last 2 days were, idk. uneasy, unpredictable and sort of disheartening since things at home havent really cleared up, and urgh it's really getting tiring. D: how many times this week have i asked myself if i could really go on, when would i break. it's really tiring, every time after training. D: & im really tired of lying. D: seriously, the conscience is hurting. yet im really unwilling to give up. it's all i have left. D: giving up would mean, suicide? urgh. i've come this far. i should be able to hold on longer. friday's band really made me doubt my abilities. what the hell was i doing lah. suddenly im so unsure of myself, in so many different aspects (& the decision for all my problems) and everything just came crashing down. and i realised why i cant do it. i dont want things to stay like this. i dont want to go out there and do it with a bunch of strangers. i want to do it with my close friends. D: it just doesnt feel right anymore. i cant get that feeling back. urgh, amidst everything, im really thankful for the ones i have though. :D loves to those who cared and helped me along, like e-hui, kexin, jasmine, nelson, sheng, oli and of course peter and david. <3 company with teammates can totally cheer me up. :DD and of course, music cures all broken souls. fangirl again! there's too much daesung footage in this for me to resist HAHA. :D Labels: brudders/sistas, fangirling, ramblings ich liebe Tom! 12:40 AM |
♥ willkommen
"WIR STERBEN NIEMALS AUS " Viel zu viel Liebe an der Musik Viel zu viele Grenzen unbesiegt So viele Gedanken und Wörter nicht beendet Ich glaub nicht das das bald endet Wir bleiben immer schreiben uns in die Ewigkeit Ich weiß das immer irgendwo was bleibt Wir fühlen wir sind fürs Ende nicht bereit Wir sterben niemals aus Ihr tragt uns bis in alle Zeit this is a slightly fangirly blog of a girl, who loves tokio hotel. komm shon, wir schaffen es zusammen. ♥ das ist mich
siewying (: $2,735,264 Lasallian, Nanyang Girl Nanyang Concert Band double basses! ♥ HCJC OG 13! ♥ APOLLO!!! :D HC BAND! ♥♥♥ HC Ultimate! ♥♥♥ swimming! TOKIO HOTEL! :D ♥♥ ich liebe TOM! ♥♥♥ 
♥ meine wunsch
more As tokio hotel caught on cam dvd! reach 168 D: drums! guitarrrrr! bass! lernen Deutsch! fly to Europe! stop procrastinating. to be a global citizen ♥ reden
talk of the town(:
♥ ich hor
♥ ich brech aus
tumblr peter ching ying chun hui ee ning guen yik han sheng hui zhen jereld jing yi kuan yue liu yi jie qi nicole qianwen shaun shi hui sok khoong wilford yin hwee clarinets euphoniums fluoboes horns percussion saxophones trombones trumpets nycbsec3s webshots1 webshots2 youtube APOLLO! :D 09S71 chengxin huihua junde kristie sze min cindy wenhao HCBAND! :D cheeshan cynthia edwin germaine jia ying jonathan judy jun jie lionel lorraine patricia pei san quinza rosalind sabrina sun ran tian hui valerie weiqi yufei ziyan zongxian HCULT! :D cynthia tan daryl evelyn jiajie jiaming jianler jiawei jiawen jingyi kanzy lily lincoln matthew nelson shengjie sijie xinmei xinyu ♥ gestern
♥ danke shon
design: pure:HS daily blog basecodes: detonatedlove image: missromance music: myflashfetish ♥ adverts
 Make your own banner at MyBannerMaker.com! |
